Music touches my soul. No matter the mood, beat/rhythm, situation, time of year... I can find music lifts me when I'm low, heals me when I'm wounded, makes me grab my boys and dance around the kitchen when I'm happy and act all goofy till we're laughing so hard it's difficult to breathe.
I've been humming this song since Sunday. Just popped into my head while I was trying to fall asleep Sunday night in the hospital room all by myself. We are honestly doing good. We have our moments thru out the day. We can be laughing or just doing something routine and it'll hit like a ton of bricks that we won't be welcoming this Baby into our earthly family in June 2009. It's a blessing beyond description to have Nathan and Micah who are very good at being the precious little boys they were made to be ;) God has blessed us so much.
On Sunday I kept thinking, "This can't be happening again. Why would God allow me to carry a baby only to take it away?" A special family friend and veteran mother wrote in an email (they have gone thru more than we ever have). "Our greatest purpose is to praise Him. This little life was not wasted! This child is already doing what God created him to do.... praise God and bring glory to Him. I'm privileged to have been used by God to create one more soul to live in Heaven. This life we are living is just temporary." Wow. Just what I needed to be reminded of. Danny & I are blessed to have so many people all around the world to lift us up in prayer and just tell us how much we're loved. We truly believe that this life was not wasted. God is good all the time.
Bring the Rain
by Mercy Me
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You?
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than the pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me, what's a little rain?
So I pray
Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty